January 8, 2012

My Birthday

I had my 26th birthday this past weekend! I have always been the one to count down the days to my birthday. I love celebrating them, but this one was tough. For some odd reason the idea of being closer to 30 than 20 is giving me the hardest time!

I always tend to evaluate my life on my birthday. I look at where I have been and where I am going. Is where I am good enough? Have I been who I have wanted to be? Have I achieved the goals I set for myself? Should I have more things figured out?

Then I think about the fact that life is always going to be full of questions without answers. ...And having the answers is not the purpose of life. Life is never going to be what you think it "should" be. It is always changing and the plan you have for yourself is guaranteed to encounter bumps and turns. I know I'm growing though and it feels good. I know I am truly finding me more and more everyday.

I feel so blessed that I was surrounded by my family who is always so loving and supportive. I was given such wonderful gifts! I will be able to shop at Anthropologie without feeling guilty. I received some play money to go furniture shopping...to enable a makeover with my new chalk paint I got for Christmas! I also got a gift card to have my nails done and I can't wait to dive into my new book, The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo. That just names a few and the 20 kisses from my niece and nephew as I was leaving was priceless. I would have to say my wish has already come true!

I have been going through a difficult time these past few months. I have had to re-evaluate a relationship that has been so important to me for five years and it is not easy. I'm sure you have noticed my absence on my blog. I hope you have been checking back for me every now and then! I really appreciate you listening today. I have missed sharing my life with you!

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